My name is Ria and I am based of Chicago, IL. I have been struggling with infertility since 2004. I have had number of pregnancy losses from 2 months to 4.5 months pregnancies. I have had three D&Cs and 5 Uterine surgeries to fix Adenomyosis/ endometriosis and fibroids. We spent more than 200K out of pocket on egg donor cycles without any luck . I am feeling like I am getting depressed since I love kids and can’t afford a surrogate. I am feeling helpless and don’t know what to do. I have 5 frozen blastocysts but my RE said I shouldn’t take risk and should thru a surrogate but I can’t afford it. I want to become a mother and my husband doesn’t want to adopt right now since his sperm has no issue and he wants his own baby. I don’t want him to divorce me and marry someone else because I had left my parents’ to Mary him against my parents’ wishes and therefore my dad has disowned me.