I'm setting up this up to help me achieve my goal a dream come true of becoming a mother. I'm having a hard time having and keeping a pregnancy. I've been trying to have a baby for over 15 years. I've had 10 miscarriages, 4 ectopic pregnancies, 2 surgeries and 2 rounds of shots of methotrexate. I have lupus as well. My ex husband told me,"that's why you can't have kids" and he decided to cheat and get someone else pregnant. I want to do a IVF because I don't ovulate like I'm supposed to. I tried rounds clomiphene and letrozole didn't work. The other reason is because of my previous surgeries. I lost one of my tubes and I don't want to take a chance getting pregnant again and the fetus getting stuck in my last tube. I could lose that tube too. As a woman this is very depressing and makes me sad to see women out here having babies that they don't want. Some of them shouldn't even be parents, when a person like me wants to be a mother. Being a woman, it's hard when your existence on Earth is to reproduce and to love and you can't even do that. The saddest part about it is, everyday you see the scars on your body from a baby thats not here. I want to feel the Joy of bringing a life into the world, to see a little me.