At a very young age I knew I wanted to be a mom. Before I could work I volunteered at my camp in the early childhood center. One of my very first jobs as a teen was in a daycare. I loved the kids and the kids loved me. One of them even called me mommy every day! As I got older I was always careful so when I never got pregnant I wasn’t concerned. In 2022 the concern started creeping in. My partner of 4 years (who is now my husband) and I were still not getting pregnant. I went and got some testing done and they told me, you’re unable to conceive naturally 🥺. I did more testing and in 2023 I had my first round of IVF. This round was unsuccessful. It put me in a bad place so I just gave up for a little bit. In 2025 one of my husband’s coworkers told us about him and his wife’s success in which they got two healthy babies so I decided to reach out to their doctor. I got more testing done and we came up with a plan. As of today I had two successful retrievals and four transfers. Unfortunately none of my transfers were successful 🥺 . I’m at the point where I need to make more embryos but I’ve depleted my insurance benefit for medications already. The retrieval I did in 2022 used all my medication benefits. In 2025 and 2026 I paid cash for my medications one fill was $1500 and then $900 per pen! This adds up. On top of this coinsurance and other charges are super expensive. I’ve paid $5300 for retrievals and $1800 for transfers. I’ve run up my credit cards trying to pay. My labs and everything looks normal so I don’t want to give up on my dream! I need to make more embryos and I would like to have them tested which is $3900! All of the children in my life love me but being a mother to my own child is something I desperately want. When I see babies I cry. I don’t want to give up. Please help me!